grace abounds…

Tonight, I will go to bed asking God for extended grace and mercy. Tomorrow I will wake and thank Him for His unending mercies. 

I start my first rotation of medical school tomorrow morning and I am finding myself back at Lutheran General Hospital, a hospital for which I once worked as a pharmacy tech. It was where I spent months rolling carts through the long halls, dropping off medications for patients and wondering what it would be like to one day be that woman in the white coat over there, speaking with that patient.. treating that patient. I had applied to medical school for the third year in a row and was anxiously waiting, again, to receive that email or call. 

It was during those months that I really felt, like physically felt within my body, that desire to become a doctor. I realized that it wasn’t enough for me to just roam halls or drop off meds, which I do not ever believe is below me to do.. but most of those drugs I hadn’t the slightest clue what they were for! and really, I wanted to be in the know. I wanted to interact with people, their hearts, and their aches.. and be in a position to be able to offer them understanding, relief, hope..

It wasn’t until mid June of that year that I got the call that I was accepted! I sobbed in a chair on the first floor of LGH as I called my parents, brother and my then boyfriend (now husband). A lady came out and handed me a tissue who seemed slightly concerned for my well being -oh if you only knew why!! Something I had waited for.. for SO LONG.. it had finally arrived!! I was so humbled.. so grateful.. so relieved.. and then just so excited!!

fast forward 2 years later, literally a few days past 2yrs.. I am putting my bag together with notebook, pens, white coat, steth and so much more. cutting my nails short and reading up on the ins and outs of OB/GYNE as I get ready for my first day back at Lutheran, this time, as a medical student.

I am overwhelmed at God’s grace and sovereignty in my life. No one could have better orchestrated this masterpiece called life the way the Lord has. The intricacies in emotion and movement that are involved in life and its progression.. I just am in awe of who He is.. and just how much greater He is than what I am able to even grasp with my mind and heart.

God is good. His grace has brought me thus far and it will be His grace that continues to take me through this life. I want nothing more than to be continually found in that grace.. right in the middle of it. I want never to be apart from it and always to be a extension of it.

Oh Lord, you’re beautiful.
Your face is all I seek.
And when your eyes are on this child,
Your grace abounds to me.

“When I said, “My foot is slipping,”
your unfailing love, Lord, supported me.
When anxiety was great within me,
your consolation brought me joy.”
Psalm 94:18-19
a year ago today.. 💍❤️ #isaidyes

a year ago today.. 💍❤️ #isaidyes

to live in your house, O Lord…

Oh how I wish these words would be the deepest desires of my heart..

I love to live in Your house, oh Lord I love to be here at Your feet And let Your words be the food I eat, the food I eat
I love to live in Your house, oh Lord To dine at the table with my King And give You the praise I bring, the praise I bring For here in Your house, I find Your embrace You set on my head, a garland of grace When I lift my hands, You fill me with more Oh I love to live, I love to live In the house of the Lord

STEP1 - Soli Deo Gloria

starting tomorrow morning I will no longer be available via facebook until after STEP1 in June.

I am having eugene change my fbook password so that I can focus and be faithful as I study for this exam. if you need to contact me:

school email:
personal email: most of you should have this.. if not, ask eugene.
phone: call me. text me. i love messages! :)
or find my husband Eugene.

please pray for me if you think of me.

Soli Deo Gloria.

"So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God." -1 Corinthians 10:31

"Cause me to hear thy lovingkindness in the morning; for in thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift up my soul unto thee." -Psalm 143:8

"Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord, my strength, and my redeemer." -Psalm 19:14

12.29.11 (Taken with instagram)

12.29.11 (Taken with instagram)

Peace and Joy

"Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."

Romans 5:1-5

“To see, in some measure, like God. His love and His knowledge are not distinct from one another, nor from Him. We could almost say He sees because He loves, and therefore loves although He sees.”
C. S. Lewis, A Grief Observed
“Rebuke, explain, mock, forgive. For this is one of the miracles of love; it gives —to both, but perhaps especially to the woman —a power of seeing through its own enchantments and yet not being disenchanted.”
C. S. Lewis, A Grief Observed
“In real life —that’s one way it differs from novels —his words and acts are, if we observe closely, hardly ever quite ‘in character,’ that is, in what we call his character. There’s always a card in his hand we didn’t know about.”
C. S. Lewis, A Grief Observed